-to grow OR to stifle growth-

Sometimes I wonder how life is meant to be led.

Whether humans will ever grow out of sterotypes passed down by our ancestors.

Is learning and gaining a life-long process or does one stop at where he/she thinks its enough?

Work has affected me greatly of late. How people can say things without thinking about it first.

Lg made the following observations of me, which was became very apparant since I took over all those files earlier this year:

1. Easily irritated
2. Grew impatient easily
3. Grouchy
4. Complained alot about work and surroundings
5. Decrease in the number of smiles that I always had as compared to in the past

How true... In fact, I was very surprised how accurate lg was. Everything said hit a nail in me. Made me wonder if I am truly happy working.

Yet somehow, over the past few days, I found my passion for work coming back. It seems like without a particular person around, my working speed actually improve alot more and my focus is slowly coming back. Along with adopting an age-old system, I now feel better managing all the files that I have at present. Guess in a way, when he went away, I realised that his style stifles my growth in my work. He probably thought his way of 'teaching' would help me grow. Guess its just not doing it.

I just hope that I will have everything in place before that person comes back from his holidays. That way, I will be able to manage the files better from the point after he returns.

Then perhaps, one day, my smiles will come back...